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Post by rarnold18 on Apr 14, 2010 16:08:43 GMT -5
Last night, I noticed Thor wasn't quite acting right, a bit on the sluggish side...still playing but not quite as enthusiastically. I wasn't too worried his color was good, and he was eating and drinking ok. Boy was I wrong. This morning sometime between 5am and 7am, Thor passed. He had only been with me since January and I thought he was doing good, he coat had improved, he was developing good muscle tone, and he was a lot more active. Heck he was almost 3 1/2 lbs! I keep wracking my brain trying to figure out what I missed, he didn't seem to be having any trouble breathing, he wasn't making any weird noises or grinding his teeth like I've heard other ferrents talk about, there was nothing abnormal in the litter boxes. I hate to think that I missed something and that he suffered, All I know about his and Gabby's past is that they were abandoned at a vet clinic in the middle of the night back in January. Thor only weighted 1 lb and Gabby just under 1 lb. I think he was about 2, and that is way to young to pass...
What am I missing?!?!? What did I miss???
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Post by sherrylynne on Apr 14, 2010 18:44:21 GMT -5
I am so sorry to hear about Thor. You're right- that's way too young The only way you'll know for sure is to have a necropsy done, unfortunately. He could have had a heart condition, anything. Those are next to impossible to detect at times. The one thing I do know- you did NOTHING wrong!!! Gods forbid, but sometimes these things just happen. No warning, no reason. I'm quite certain he didn't suffer. You would have picked up on that. Teeth grinding, etc. And at least he got to know what it was to be loved by someone.
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Post by Heather on Apr 14, 2010 23:14:35 GMT -5
Please, don't beat yourself up. If you're going to rescue these little ones, you cannot do that. You are experiencing one of the biggest pitfalls of rescue. We can fix temporally the damage that was done but we can never erase it We can only love them as much as we can and cry over them when they go and remember them and all their antics and their quirks and smile in memory. That's what he would want of you. REALLY You didn't miss anything. You noticed him being a bit sluggish, you saw it....his little heart probably gave out, organ failure. You could do "nothing" absolutely nothing for him. You have no idea what happened before. He had been starved, neglected. This does horrible things to their little bodies. It was his time to walk the path. Know that he probably fell asleep and slipped quietly into the arms of Morpheus to be carried to the bridge. He had already completed his little goals......he was no longer hungry and most of all he was loved. That was your biggest gift to this little one, you loved him and now you will remember him. His life is and was complete. Run swift and free little Thor. You are now playing with the many who have gone before. A candle is lit but it's not to guide your little paws as you had a much mightier guide who could no longer wait to have you play in the beautiful gardens at the bridge. Goodbye little one, you were loved and your journey on this plain complete. Goodbye little Thor, goodbye ciao
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Post by rarnold18 on Apr 15, 2010 0:19:43 GMT -5
it just sucks that I couldn't do more....I'm the type that tries to save everyone and just about everything... most recently a kitten that was hit by the car in front of me...needless to say "crappy kitty" (he had hookworms and coccidia and was quarrentined away from all the furry children with strict washing rules) he's happily driving the older cats crazy... I don't know I seem to collect the broken, sick, and needy. I want to save them all...sucks, sucks, sucks, sucks, sucks!!!! I'm frustrated, upset, and sad all at once...grrrr! d**n the person who allowed Thor and Gabby to starve and suffer....it sucks that I couldn't undo the bad....grrrrr!!!
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Post by mjohn143 on Apr 15, 2010 11:06:41 GMT -5
I'm really sorry for your loss. I know its harder to accept when you don't understand why or feel that there is more that could have been done. It would drive me crazy too, but it is in no way your fault. It is horrible what happened to those two before you found them, but you gave them a great life and they are so lucky for that.
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Post by rarnold18 on Apr 17, 2010 18:40:44 GMT -5
Now I'm watching Gabby like a hawk, and am super stressed! I was talking to my MIL's friend who runs our local Great Dane rescue and she understands how frustrated I am but told me that "You can't save all of them" and that the malnutrition that Thor and Gabby suffered probably damaged his heart.... which I know but man...I wish I could...
Love you Thor, can't wait to meet you, Lola, Sophie and Ed at the Bridge....
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Post by sherrylynne on Apr 21, 2010 18:50:52 GMT -5
Please try to keep in mind- you're human. If you had the ability to have erased the bad...you wouldn't be here on this earth!
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