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Post by Jaycee on Sept 19, 2008 19:47:24 GMT -5
She curled up tightly in her cozy sack with a belly full of food. Tired. Exhausted. Happy. The warmth of her bedding soothed her achey body...lulling her into a relaxed state of thought. She had lived so long in solitude, and now she had a wonderful extended family of brothers and sisters. How she loved to dance and play...dook and dive with them.
She curled up a little tighter in the warmth of her body.
Her thoughts raced ahead of her...rummaging through sock drawers, theiving every toy under the bed into her secret hidey hole....digging and tossing rice out of the box, and on a good occasion, digging and dumping the popcorn out of the furless mommy's popcorn bowl. Wrestling. Chasing. Jumping. Leaping.
Her thoughts slowly ebbed into a dream state. She ran with her family under the bed covers, and danced in the shadows and lights of this world. Dooking...dancing.
She could see in her mind each of her family running along side of her. Bounding endlessly and happily in the afternoon haze. How happy she was receiving ear licks...and giving them in return.
In the distance, upon the horizon, she saw something strange and new. A light? A feeling? Uncertain. She turned and looked back at her brothers and sisters playing...and yet they looked somehow distant to her. She turned and looked ahead, and the light was closer. Only this time she could see others playing in brightness. More brothers...more sisters. Dancing and dooking.
She turned once more to look at the family she knew. They were still there, watching her intently. Their warm expressions were sadly comforting, but she couldn't turn back for one more quick cuddle, or soft nuzzle. She turned and faced ahead, and with a deep breath, then dooked and danced right over to the bridge. To her new brothers and sisters. To dance and wait for her family to dance with her again.
Your family will miss you for always, my little Whisp. I only wish I could have known you a little longer, and held you one more time.
5/12/07 - 9/19/08
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Post by buzzonesbirdie on Sept 19, 2008 21:04:02 GMT -5
little Whisp Jaycee I am so sorry for your loss. I know there is nothing i can say in this time that will make you feel better. But I will tell you that I know that she knew that she was loved and that you did what ever you could to make her happy while she was with you. Even though her time with you was short, it was a great time for her. She knew love and comfort from you. Dook Dook Little Whisp
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Post by weloveourweasels on Sept 19, 2008 22:22:13 GMT -5
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Post by Heather on Sept 19, 2008 22:53:52 GMT -5
Oh, I really wish I had magic words that could ease the pain. What a beautiful tale of journey you write. I have to admit, I've sometimes wondered why, when you rescue a furbaby that they just seem to get comfortable and feel loved and then they continue their journey. Perhaps, we're just messengers and they feel the message has been received when we give a part of our hearts to them. Maybe a ferret can't leave until they have a piece of love to take with them. I will light a candle for you, to start the healing but to never forget. May your memories soon change from tears to sad smiles. May you hear her soft voice in the wind, and see her out of the corner of your eye. She will always be with you. I'm so sorry that Whisp has felt she needed to continued her journey. I will extinguish her healing candle and light her travelling candle. Run little Whisp, you travel a path well worn by tiny little paws. You are free, once more of pain and worry. You play and chase the ones that have gone before. Another bright star shines brightly this night. Another furchild starts on a new and greater adventure, where fear and pain are only a distant memory. Good luck little Whisp, we will remember.
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Post by Jaycee on Sept 19, 2008 23:25:18 GMT -5
Thank you all for your kind words. This really hit me harder than I thought it would. I know it will get better with time, but it is always hard to believe at first.
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Post by Forum Administrator on Sept 20, 2008 0:21:31 GMT -5
OMG no!!!! How did I not see this thread? Jaycee I am so sorry! OMG I'm crying right now! Having just lost my first ferret in July, I know all too well the pain of losing a beloved friend. You were there for me when I lost Sams, and I am here for you know if you want/need it. I will PM you my phone number so you can call me if it would make you feel better. God bless you for taking Whisp in. She was loved by you so very much in her final days. I only had Sams for a short time before he passed on, I felt bad because I felt like he got cheated out of life, like he deserved to have a better life and he died before he could fully experience it, but I did all I could to let him know he was loved, and you did all you could for Whisp. You will always have a little angel watching over you. I hope that Sams is keeping Whisp company at the Bridge. You are in my thoughts, Jaycee. sweet Whisp.
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Post by Jaycee on Sept 20, 2008 0:52:17 GMT -5
I would appreciate that. Thanks so much!
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Post by meli on Sept 20, 2008 12:10:26 GMT -5
Awe jaycee I'm so sorry. I remember how happy you were when you got her. At least she got to live happily with you. If you need a shoulder I'm here. whisp
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Post by Jaycee on Sept 20, 2008 12:44:15 GMT -5
Yeah. I looked back at some of my older posts. I really was excited to finally add a dew to my family. I just can't believe she is gone. She was fine 2 weeks ago...playing and happy. I can't believe she is really gone.
I feel horrible too. Like, maybe I should have done something different...tried something else. Maybe I should have noticed a change sooner, got help quicker...oh I don't know. I am beating myself up over nothing I can change.
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Post by Forum Administrator on Sept 20, 2008 12:49:51 GMT -5
If it was juvenille lymphoma or bone cancer there really is nothing you COULD have done, other then the pred and the low carb diet. It is a terrible disease and you did the best you could. I know beating yourself up is inevitable (I think we all do it when a pet dies, regardless of the circumstances it always seems like it was our fault) but I hope you are able to move past that stage of grief and start to heal. You are an amazing person for caring for all of your little ones. My baby boy DEW is keeping your little girl DEW company at the bridge. Which kinda scares me because I have a feeling that when I get to the bridge its not going to be there anymore. Sams had a thing for stashing stuff Didnt whisp have that quirk too?
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Post by Jaycee on Sept 20, 2008 13:20:50 GMT -5
Lol, Giuli...I needed that! Yeah, Sams and Whisp are a dangerous combo. There probably won't be a bridge...but where they would stash it, I have no idea! Probably under a cloud, or between the stars...or hidden in that place between dusk and dawn.... .........one thing is for sure. It won't fit under the bed!
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Post by Jaycee on Sept 20, 2008 16:51:25 GMT -5
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Post by bigsis7 on Sept 20, 2008 18:14:32 GMT -5
I'm so sorry Jaycee!! You are in my prayers!
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Post by bubonicapple on Sept 20, 2008 20:33:28 GMT -5
Thank you for your kind words, and I only wish I could offer as much to you as you did to me.
I'm sorry for your loss, and I wish Whisp all the best and all the happiness across the Bridge.
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Post by Heather on Sept 21, 2008 7:38:06 GMT -5
Jaycee, please don't beat yourself up for not noticing...there was nothing to notice. Juvenile lymphomas, lymphosarcomas, bone cancer....insedious, fast, hateful disease. By the time we notice, we're saying goodbye...the one concilation (if there is one), having worked with the human versions thereof....by the time the little one is aware...the bridge is already in view. There is usually little to no discomfort right until the end. Perhaps a general malaise that makes one finally aware but little notice. The hard one is for those that are left behind, doing as you're doing now, wondering if they missed an important clue. You did the most awesome and loving thing possible....you took her in loved her with all your heart, let her go when it was time, and lost a piece of your heart when she left. That is the best thing we can do for our furkids. Some rescue remedy works good (it's not just for our furkids ) If you want to delve deeper into that realm. Another Balch Remedy would be for Pine...which is a suitable remedy for someone who feels they weren't able to do enough for their furchild and blame themselves for not having noticed signs of an illness, or not acting quickly enough. I (and I'm sure others here would back me up) would agree that you did what you could and everything possible but that doesn't stop the feelings...I know Heal well, we need people like you....furchildren like Whisp needs people like you ... ciao
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